2007 -- год спустя. [ advertising space : webmaster ] 1975 - 2005: Lost Manuscript * Потерянная Жизнь NonFiction Outline: Attack Capital Me GodMe igod ii Trinity Tripod doesn't let me to create the second level subdirectory, which I need for hypertext structure, so I will try to use my Geocities. Book of Spectator and Virtual Theatre ...

SELF -- Notes for Anatoly-Writer

... Not only I couldn't write for several hour or correct, I could not read it!

Every time I glance at the page, any page, I feel a shame -- and being shamed. Why didn't I put the labor in this line? Why the picture, the image isn't finished? An the missing parts? I see that something is missing!

I can't even start the story! Three-four layers of introduction! I can do it only AFTER the story began!

Do I have to comment again on every chapter? I already have the NOTES directory!

Selfhood

Part I. Father

Part II. Son

Part III. Ghost

Godiary

Stories. From the First Love to the Last, the most dramatic. Tragic? Death. From a teenager to an old man. Or the reverse?

Father is the most sexually charged out of the three?

Son is tempted, Spirit is an Artist.

....

I didn't know that I will be writing about women when I began this project. I thought it will be in POV, not in Self. Why am I surprised? My gradmoothers, my mother, my sister -- I should know that woman waits for me, but I didn't see them as women.

What I don't remember is the hurt. Strange.
I know that it was there, that I suffered, but when I try to find it, I don't see it. Why my mind have none of it?

I don't see any evil even when my heart was broken. It was love, any love makes you alive.
What did I learn from each? Younger and older, the world welcomed me, the singing place.

PS. MetaMe and I files are not in the main SELF directory (only here)!

@2000-2002 GeoAlaska * GeoAlaska NEXT: WRITE @ Tripod

Applications of SELF for Acting and Directing: Theatre Theory (see The Book of Spectator and Virtual Theatre).

* Folding (doubles) : Identification (One or Many)

* Concept of Trinity : actor (artist) -- character (hero) -- spectator

and

Spectator -- Audience -- Public

* "Angelic" nature of virtual reality (Hamlet as angel, of Demon Hamlet)

Utopia Album(s)

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* Use http://vtheatre.net to link to Virtual Theatre pages!

Lijit Search 2005-2006 Theatre UAF Season: Four Farces + One Funeral & Godot'06
©Film-North

u21.us -- Utopia... part of this Utopia is, of course, me -- the place I cannot arrive. [dreams.vtheatre.net] Do I still any interest in (exploring) myself? I am not sure. In the world? What are interests are left? ... diary.vtheatre.net/2009 [part 1 and 2] + filmplus.org/aDiary/2009 Could it be God? That's the name of Utopia for you!